Alhamdulillah. Eidul Adha hadir lagi. and am feel sooo relax. i took my leave today till sunday. chillin since this mornin. listenin to good songs. reading good news. and now am writing. Hope to write good thing. Things that always drive me to be more humble as a real man.
Since am child till am 17 year of age. my life is all about "wanting"..want-wanting- feel wanted. My parent will always tell me to just "ask and we will try to make it happen sooner or later". Well that was their responsibilty anyway?.
But when it comes to be "tooo" wanting…it will nurture the thinking. turn up to be selfish, turn up to be eager to want more..more..and more..and will end up to be. MANJA, stress bila xdpt apa yg di minta, tamak haloba..dengki..hasad… and thats was the biggest mistake i could tell..
anak-anak yg dipupuk dari kecil utk "Mintak apa sahaja". subconcious mind mereka akan menerima bulat2 attitude tersebut. dan ianya akan tertanam utk 20,30,40 tahun seterusnya dalam penghidupannya…
Alhamdulillah..I realized it early. and When is tht?
its 9 Zulhijjah 1421 Hijrah. Bersamaan 7 thn yg lalu sehari sebelum Hari raya Eidul Adha utk tahun 2000(as am writing this post). When i was 17yrs of age. SPM year 2000..
On that day. I learn about GIVING is more than WANTING.
Giving..will be remembered than wanting.
Giving is something that will be forever. The moment will never come back..
When u are consistent in giving thru out your life. u’ll be miss by others..
and am practising it till now. and i feel good about it! =)
The day My one and only Grandmother. Nenek Siti Arab. In memories. Kembali ke rahmatullah pada Hari Raya Haji.I’ll miss you granny…al-fatihah buat mu nenek.
My granny use to be Powerful Cholleric kind of person. She can easily piss off kalau ada perkara yg pada mata dia xpatut, xsopan, xberadab, kurang ajar.bodoh dan sebagainya lagi. Sementelah adik beradik aku semua nya lelaki. tau-tau la perangai mcm mana.
The thing yg menyebabkan sampai skrg aku masih ingt pada Nenek Siti Arab ni adalah…Betapa istiqamahnya beliau dalam menasihati cucunya (aku yg menaip) yg masa tu sedang sibuk belajar dkt Kedah dgn pesanan2 yg baik. Yg paling xdpt aku lupa adalah dialog yg sebulan skali kami akan lakukan dkt depan pintu rumah beliau..dkt dapur…
Aku akan bg salam..(dialog umur 13thn)
Aku: Assalamualaikum Nek! Nek ni org dh nk pg sekolah balik dah nih!
Nenek: Waalaikumsalam. kojap2..Ooo kau dh nak balik? udah makan?
Aku: udah nek..
Nenek: dah kau bawak balik semua barang2?
Aku: udah nek..
Nenek : Oh. kalau mcm tu mintak maaf lah nenek yee? (salam2…)
Aku: Eheh. samelah. Nonoy pun mintak maaf nek. Doakan selamat pg selamat balik.
Nenek: Iyolah…Belajar rajin2 ye?…(Baik nek…)
Sembahyang nye kau di sinun? (Sembahyang nek..)
Ado omak kau bagi duit belanjo?..(eh..nek sure la ada nek..nk pg jauh nih)
Kojap2..(dia masuk dapur..carik somethin)
Nah Limo puluh sen.Buat duit belanjo..(seketul 50sen dlm tgn)
Aku: EH nek xpayah la susah2 nek ayah dh bg banyak td.
Nenek: senyum.
Aku: (blurr)..terima kasih. Pergi dulu ye.
Nenek: Iyolah..
Hehehehehe.. weird doesn’t she? hahahaha nk pg sekolah menengah belanja dia bg 50sen. Hohoho funny.. Mula2 tu pelik..2 3 thn lepas tu jd best.. sbb dah tahu mmg akn dpt 50sen saje. not more than that. Aku happy..dia pun happy so why argue?? and it goes for 5year..dari form 1 sampai form 5. hahahaha…thanks granny!
dan perkara ni lah yg aku ingt sampai skrg and selama 5 tahun aku belajar dkt Kedah selama tu la ada je duit 50sen seketul dlm wallet . Dia pun tau walhal aku pun tau yg belanja sekolah lebih dari tu.
Tapi bila dia dah tiada.. baru aku tau..apa yg boleh aku ambik dari sikap dia.
dia mendidik aku utk appreciate sekecil2 perkara. Kerana ianya berharga..sedekah 50sen dan 1juta ringgit..pahala nya tetap sama.
yg penting hati kene ikhlas. Without prejudice. dan harganya aku dpt nilai bila dia pergi sehari sebelum raya. Kita akan hanya appreciate dan ingat pada someone..bila org nya sudah tiada…
Aku speed dari kedah balik tg malim semata-mata nk tgk arwah utk kali terakhir… as aku je sorg yg belum balik. Sbb aku yg paling jauh. Hari raya haji pd tahun 2000 tu. kami sambut dgn majlis tahlil.yassin dan urusan pengkebumian.
Maka tiadalah lagi insan yg beri aku 50sen selepas pada itu. GIVING 50sen to me was the most thing i’ll remember. And will value..for the rest of mylife. That day i remember her as Nenek Lima Kupang.
I learn tht, no matter how much u give to others. as long as the gift/money u give is ikhlas Lillahitaala. U will be remembered someday in a good manner. 50sen yg ikhlas. pahalanya sama besar dgn sejuta sumbangan. No need utk tunggu sampai ada bnyk duit baru nak sumbang atau bila available baru commit utk start Giving. Its still the same. silap2 kalau sedetik tiada rs ikhlas. maka alamat nya habis! kaput! Puff! pahala gone mcm tu saje.
Thats the thing about GIVING.
my life.. is all about giving.
Dont teach yourself "to ask to be love". As Allah already love U since you’re born.
Love is not about Wanting..Love is about Giving.
YOur parents love u…they protect you no matter what..
If you love your parent…do you request for it?..u the one should give? aite?
If you love your country..do your country take care of u?..it is u who should take care of it… make it peace and harmony..make sense?
If you love your friends..ur peers..ur husband or ur wife..what should you do??
give the love as it will never hurt…. true…??
Allah gave Him HIS love to u.. have u never hurt HIM??..answer? its your call!..have u?
Its not always about money..money can’t buy u a memories. Give your time..give your contribution, give your word and advise..give people something they can treasure…
I hope. peoples. my friends out there will understand me a bit. Dont get me wrong, giving money, belanja makan, gift, present..stuff..its nothing to do with pay back or "u owe me that damn thing" or what so ever…
ITS ALL ABOUT GIVING…lillahitaala…you happy..am happy.. just like Lima Kupang Granny(^_^)..al-fatihah buat mu nenek. You’re always in my prayer since Eidul adha 2000, and whenever i give somethin to people in needs..when i chip in 50sen.. hope i can do better than as it was yesterday granny..God bless your soul…..cheersss…